How does it feel to have transsexualism?

Below are comments and experiences of males affected by transsexualism. Michael—Victoria, 2002
“I can remember as far back as the age of five assuming that when I grew up I would be a man. It never occured to me that I might be a girl.”

Billy—USA, 2006
“For many people who consider themselves not necessarily transgender – but transsexual – there is a destination. It’s not about the journey or any kind of gender-play or drag. It’s about changing your entire life. I think a lot of people don’t understand that for many of us the idea is not to end up identifying as transsexual”

Lee Mun-gi—China, 2004
“I felt humiliated having to wear a girl’s school uniform. I’ve never felt like a girl. It was like living as a ghost. Since it looked like high school was going to be more of the same, I quit school…I’ve never lived life as a transsexual. I’ve always lived my life naturally as a man. So I don’t really know well the transsexual life.”

Stewart—Victoria, 2005
“The most important point for me is for folks to understand that I am a man, have always been a man and will always be a man, regardless of my previous physicality. That I have NOT “become” a man after having been a “woman”.”

James Green—USA, 1995
“I’ve had gender confirmation surgery. The term “gender dysphoria” was never true for me. I was always comfortable with my male gender identity. It was my sex, my female body, that created the dysphoria…We do not change our gender; we change our sex in order to facilitate the full expression of our selves. Our gender opposes our sex, and it is the physical sex which causes the dysphoria and which we want to change.”

Andrew— NSW, 2003
“I am a man who was assigned to the gender called ‘female’ at my birth. Since society assumes that gender and sex always match, the doctor who looked at my genitals instead of my mind, assumed incorrectly I was a girl. Throughout my childhood I knew perfectly well that I was really a boy but because my body seemed to insist otherwise…I regard myself as a perfectly normal, well-adjusted man.”

Cameron—NSW, 2002
“I regard transsexualism as a medical condition like any other and transition as a rehabilitative process…one does not spend all their life transitioning. I also believe that when one transitions it is more about a transitioning of public genders than anything else. That transitioning is about the rest of the world realising the truth of who I am and the recognition that comes with this. I have always known myself to be nothing but male despite the fact that a medical professional pronounced to my parents that I was a girl, based on a glance at my genitalia.”

Marcus Arana—USA, 2006
“We don’t want to be separated out from other men and women. My gender identity is not about being transgender; it’s about being male.”

Tracey—USA, 1970
“”I’m not a woman — that’s the whole point. I’m a man. Inside myself I’m a man and as a man it’s a horror for me to have breasts. They’re constant reminders that nature made a dreadful mistake in putting me together. I have to get rid of all the woman in me, and surgery is the only way.”

Mark—NSW, 1990
“When I go to the beach the top of me looks male and bottom half doesn’t. It might take three operations, it might take five. I’ve been through a lot of pain and there’s more to come. But in the long run, I’ll be what I always should have been.”

Elizabeth talking about her husband—NSW, 2002
“…my husband has not wavered from the very first conversation we ever had about transsexualism. He was very sincere and extremely clear. He told me about a little boy with a girl’s name who was misunderstood, lonely and unhappy…It seemed simple and obvious to me that he was a man living with a fairly rare medical condition.”

Dylan—NSW, 2001
“I was taught to be a young woman. This was to be a lonely time for my true self. I dived into a fantasy world where I was a boy freely being a boy – such a simple dream but so far to reach. I imagined a mirror with me standing in front of it as a man. Making plans for my career, my life as a man. I found peace in myself whenever I imagined this.”

Paul—UK, 1995
“My book was written as tribute to the little boy Paul whom I abandoned all those years ago when I made the unconscious decision to conform in a society defined by rigid rules and shallow stereotypes. This little boy has suffered in silence for far too long, and now he is reborn a man.”